Even just thinking of words to start this post is hard. The truth is what I am about to start is exposing me in so many ways…
I may fail at this but I refuse to not do it because I am afraid of failure. I have failed so many times in my life I can’t even count, but it doesn’t mean it will stop me from trying again… I am one tough cookie, I can give myself that one!
So the truth is even though it always looks like things are going so well and I am always looking good on photos (because I am taking photos for the blog from the neck up only), is that I am actually really getting
more and more overweight.
In school I was quite fit and after that I was in a musical theatre dance company for 3 years, so when I got married after that and immediately started working with my husband and stopped being so extremely physically active, I started gaining weight.
Till this day, in the 14 years we have been married, I gained 30kg (not counting what I gained before that). It was very easy to have a good body image when I looked good… I never thought I felt the way other women felt about themselves when they talked about their bodies but around 10kg ago, which is about 5 years ago, I started despising my body.
I am not going to lie to you… I’m a mess physically and I can start feeling the strain emotionally. This is the reason for me to start this series. I believe that even though we should love our bodies and women should celebrate their curves, I also feel that you should be healthy and that I am getting to a place where it’s not healthy anymore. I am struggling to get up sometimes and I can feel the strain of my weight on my joints, especially my knees.
I have also started snoring because the area around my neck is getting bigger so I am struggling to breathe at night. I cant cut my toenails without getting my stomach in the way and in summer, I sweat like a pig!
Pants are also getting expensive. I wear them out in about three months because my thighs are chafing constantly… I haven’t been able to wear a skirt without tights underneath for years because of this.
This is as real as I’ve ever got on this blog… I know that but I feel like blogging moms as influencers should be getting real so that they can show other moms that you are not alone… we are not living in a surreal cyber world where there’s only butterflies and rainbows and cute selfies, we also live in a world where we are vulnerable, exposed and challenged in so many ways.
Now before we think about diets and weight loss gimmicks… this is not that and therefore I am also not going to loose 30kg in 6 months. My aim is to get fit and find ways to make it easier for me to work training into my daily activities. This is my #GetFit series where I will share with you over time, my journey on getting fit. No it’s not my New Year’s resolution, for that reason I am starting to write this January 2nd, on a Wednesday as I believe anything you start on a Monday or the 1st is bound for failure because you’ll say’ “I’ll start exercising on Monday..” or, “I’ll start exercising on the 1st of next month..” which of course you won’t because something will come up and then you’ll think you can’t start the new thing because you already failed on the first day… you know where I’m going with this?
So I start something any other day than a Monday or the 1st of a new month and for that reason I am writing this as I am deciding to make a change at midnight, right now today… my journey coming up! Who is with me to start making a change and be healthy today?